The other day I was chatting with some friends, and the subject of blogs came up (I didn’t bring it up, I promise. Everyone there already knows about my blog, and I rarely mention it in real life anyhow). One of the women, when asked if she has a blog (she is a writer), replied,
“Oh no. I find blogs to be narcissistic.”
Now, before you go all sharp-intake-of-breath on me, let me say that I wasn’t offended. I’m NOT offended. I don’t think she meant, “Kira, good gracious are you self-centered, shut up already.” She’s a very straightforward and logical person, and I took her statement to be a commentary on the phenomenon of blogging.
And then again, maybe she did mean me. If she does, it doesn’t stand in the way of us being friends…and her opinions of me are none of my business anyhow. (Note: I am posing as a far more self-assured person here. In this case, it’s exactly how I feel. However, MOST OF THE TIME, an offhand comment like this would cause me to churn endlessly about WHY and WHAT DID SHE MEAN and SHOULD I CALL HER? and WAS IT BECAUSE OF THE TIME I SAID THAT ONE STUPID THING? But this time I’m not doing that, and I’m a bit proud of my bad self. Gah. Was that ever narcissistic OR WHAT?)
It got me to thinking about the nature of blogging. Most nights I sit here, composing thoughts to share with you because…why?
Because I think you need to hear what I have to say?
Or because I need to say it?
Is either reason NOT narcissistic?
I write because I like it, because playing with words and thoughts is a satisfying diversion for me. I write here because I enjoy the feedback, and because the dailiness of it causes me to capture moments of my kids’ lives that would have escaped me otherwise. I write because of how it feels when it comes together.
I write to hear what I have to say.
After a day of puzzling, I’m no closer to an answer, so I’d like to hear what you think. Yes, YOU. Is this a narcissistic pursuit? And is that bad? If you blog, why? If you don’t, why not? Does this font make me look fat? Are some blogs better at keeping the focus off the author than others?
What do you think?